It's all the swimming I'm doing to keep afloat. Ya know the old description of a duck that paddles furiously underwater to keep everything on top looking smooth and calm?
That's me lately.
and I'm tired.
And what better forum to
For the past few weeks, I have been so so busy. PTA committees, communications, and meetings keep me busy. Starting a new business with Thirty-One keeps me busy. Attempting to generate traffic to my other blog keeps me busy (and that is HARD y'all! You have to LIVE on the Twitter to keep up). Redecorating 3 kids rooms keeps me busy. Having dinner on the table each night by 5 keeps me busy. Girl Scouts fall products. Cub Scouts popcorn. Running. Bloggin here for fun. Where does my family fit in?
I create the above busyness. I recognize that. I volunteered to be the PTA President. I decided to become a consultant for Thirty-One. To maintain 4 blogs. To decorate those rooms.
I keep telling myself that "as soon as I catch up", I'll feel better. But I never really feel like I can catch up. My to-do list gets longer each week.
I was analyzing it this week. As a SAHM, why don't I relax a little? Play with Bubba. Peruse all my cookbooks, lovingly thinking of what amazing meals I can make my family. Watch some tv.
Because I can't. It is not in my make-up. I don't feel productive unless I can look back on my day and say, that I accomplished XYZ. Argh! Who made my "make-up" anyway?
The problem is, the pace I am running life at leaves me with very little time to spend with my family. No playtime with Bubba. No laughing time with Sis after school. No talks with Brody about chameleons and water towers.
This weekend, while painting his room, Brody hung around and we had a good talk. I told him how much I enjoyed it and I'm sorry we don't talk more. He said, "that's ok - I know you are super busy on your computer." GULP
yeah. stellar mom moment for me.
So, confession is off my chest. now what? Do I give something up or learn to prioritize better?
This past week, I took a break from the twitter, the face book, and my beloved blogs. Did I feel more relaxed? not really - I just found different things to fill my time with. So I can't say that not blogging is a solution. I enjoy it too much.
I really feel that I need to start my to-do lists with more important "time-fillers", like these:
Take Bubba to the Park
Play Wii with Brody
Read with Sis
Read to Bubba
Have a date with my hubby (huh? what's that?)
Swing with Brody
Take Sis to the library
Cause those are the important ways to spend my time. Folding laundry, cleaning house, editing pictures, hanging out on the twitter, and blogging (yes, my beloved blogging) can all wait.
My family can't.